I'm becoming angry lately

As I have harped on I have had to take a pay cut. I know I am lucky to have a job, but my work load has amped up & then I get my check for alot less than normal. There are days I feel I can't keep my head above water with the amount of work. Frustrated because I ask the person that is supposed to be helping to send an e mail & the next day at lunch time I get a message oh what was it you wanted me to do yesterday. I said nope it's ok I noticed you did not do it so I took care of it myself this morning.

It's frustrating, because I keep getting , do you need me to do anything & when I say yes  this please,  it doesn't get done. Right now our industry is key in finding a vaccine for this virus we must all be on point at all times to keep things running. Am I controlling oh 100%, do I want to make sure everything goes as smooth as possible yes. Are there certain expectations & pressure on me after being in this job almost 15 years  yes. There are daily conversations about how much money & work I am expected to generate. Daily phones calls & e mails with the guys needing help even though we all learned the new system at the same time.

I feel like now more than ever the pressure is on to prove my worth so I can keep my job. I am the mom, the therapist & the work wife to the guys I work with. The other day my husband was having a seizure & my IM is dinging letting me know someone is trying to call me. It's alot.

You're only human: Billy Joel

You probably don't want to hear advice from someone else
But I wouldn't be telling you if I hadn't been there myself
It's alright
It's alright
Sometimes that's all it takes
We're only human
We're supposed to make mistakes
But I survived all those long lonely days
When it seemed I did not have a friend
'Cause all I needed was a little faith
So I could catch my breath and face the world again
Don't forget your second wind
Sooner or later you'll feel that momentum kick in
Don't forget your second wind
Sooner or later you'll feel that momentum kick in