What is the new normal ?

People are flocking to the parks the first day they opened. I watched the news & saw tons of people without masks on. I wonder if I read my blog a year from now, if things will still be the same, people wearing masks & staying 6 ft apart or will this just be a memory.

You know what I miss, cutting coupons & going to the grocery store early on a Saturday morning, It may sound dumb but I haven't been to Shoprite in 2 months, just running to Target to get the essentials trying to avoid crowds. Running in & out & over paying  just to avoid being around too many people. I miss being able to take my time, compare my coupon with the item on sale & save money. I miss just getting in the car & taking a ride down to the beach, not to go in the water, but take the dog & walk around Sandy Hook. I miss Friday night dinners with my son & this is the first mothers day in 29 years that I won't be able to hang out with him. I miss going to the store & they have everything I need. Oh I need napkins no problem. I feel like having juice I'll just swing by the store & pick some up. Now leaving the house is an ordeal. Do I have on my mask & gloves, hand sanitizer? Leaving the house makes me anxious anymore. I miss being able to hug my son if I want to.

I spoke to my mother the other day, she has been going out more & more. I did not argue with her because I don't have the energy anymore. She will be 79 in August she is going to just do whatever she wants anyway.

I stay in & away from people because if I got sick who will take care of my husband?

Every morning I start my day listing the things I'm thankful for. I'm thankful my friend tested negative for the virus, I'm thankful for my house & family & friends. I'm thankful we are healthy. I am thankful that I have a job & a way to pay my bills. I'm thankful for my freezer full of food. I'm thankful that I was able to plant my garden on Saturday.

Gratitude: The Beastie Boys

Good times gone, and you missed them
What's gone wrong in your system?
Things they bounce like a Spaulding
What'd you think, did you miss your calling?
It's so free, this kind of feeling
It's like life, it's so appealing
When you've got so much to say it's called gratitude
And that's right

Good times gone but you feed it
Hate's grown strong, you feel you need it
Just one thing, do you know you?
What you think, that the world owes you?
What's gonna set you free?
Look inside and you'll see
When you've got so much to say it's called gratitude
And that's right