There has been a lot of talk lately about God in my office one guy keeps asking if we believe. He says he does not. I think he is struggling with his faith & that's why he keeps bringing it up.
I do believe & I'll tell you why in a few. But lets start with what I don't believe:
What I don't believe is the bible, it was written by men & it's pretty clear women are considered less than. But think about this women give life, yup without women there are no babies but with modern science babies can be made without men. In CCD I was actually taught that womens periods & cramps were punishment for well being a women . Think about that you are teaching young girls that God is punishing you for being born with a vagina, but on the other hand saying God made you in his image. Talk about confusing.
Here are the reasons I believe:
There is an old saying I think from WWI that says " There are no Atheists in a fox hole" Meaning in the worst of times people turn to their faith.
When I was 18 my son was born a month early, I had been on a pill to stop early labor for about 6 months when they stopped the pill about a week later I got pains in my back, called the clinic & they told me to come in. They hooked me up to the monitors & left the room, about 15 minutes later a nurse came rushing in asking if I was moving around & knocked the monitor off of my giant belly, no I had not. Next thing I know 4 DR's came rushing in asking if I wanted an epidural or to be put under I said for what?! Well my baby was in distress every time I had a labor pain his heart rate dropped, put me under I said & running down the hallway to surgery we went. I woke up in recovery I had no idea what I had or if he was ok. My first question to the nurse was what did I have? She said you don't know? You had a 7lb 6oz boy with bright red hair. She actually wheeled my entire bed to the NICU to see him. There he was in his incubator like a little chicken they lifted the lid & I said hey buddy I'm your mom. He reached out his little hand to me & gripped my finger with all his might. In that moment I believed in miracles & knew until my last breath I would protect him. That's the first miracle that made me believe
When my son was 6 months old my ex took him out of his car seat on the side of the road & tried to throw him into traffic. He held an innocent baby in his arms & tried to throw him into the traffic on RT 35. I quickly defused the situation & got my son back in car seat & never saw my ex again. I knew God spoke through me that day & gave me the words to save my son. I had night terrors from that experience. This explains why I am so protective of my son. That's the second Miracle that made me believe.
When I was getting ready to marry my husband, I was having very bad panic attacks wondering if I was making the right decision having been burned before. I went to church & sat in the front row, tears streaming down my face, unable to stop them. Father Michael saw me he looked me in the eye bowed his head & prayed for about 5 or 10 minutes. I sat through mass unable to stop the tears. When I walked out of the church, I physically felt the weight on my shoulders lift, fresh air whooshed into my lungs & my brain cleared. I could not stop thanking God, I knew it was him giving me the peace I needed & could not stop praising him to anyone that would listen. Father Michael asked God to help me I just know it & he did. So if Father Michael is out there reading this, thank you .
At every difficult point in my life I have prayed, when my husband was in ICU for 7 days I cried & prayed.When my son travels I pray. When I wake up in panic attacks I pray.
God has given me the peace I have needed when I have needed it. My faith has gotten me through the most difficult situations in my life, so yes I believe.
One last thought on this:
I think the Bible should be 4 words ... Don't be an asshole. That is the best life lesson anyone can learn & something I try to live by & taught my son.
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