Where to begin

 So I was rejected for unemployment because I make too much even though I am taking a 836 a month pay cut. My husband said what are we going to do ? I said pay the import bills like mortgage, electric etc & call everyone else if needed. On the outside I have to remain calm not giving away that on the inside I am thinking if this pay cut lasts longer then 2 months I need to look into Bankruptcy to get out of the credit card debt I got myself into when my husband got sick.
 I keep telling myself there are people worse off than me, there are people with no job & no source of income. I will pull money from my savings to pay what I need to but I can't deplete that because if lay offs come next then what. So I take a deep breath go outside on the side porch sit in the sunshine & listen to the birds.
 The world is a mess right now, people are dying from an invisible enemy. People in Nigeria are starving because they can't work & the government doesn't have enough to feed them, the poorest villages got a bag of beans, a bag of flour & a bag of salt for each citizen. I have a house, a job & a freezer full of food so I have nothing to complain about. 
 My son's best friend his mom is in the hospital , her kidneys & liver are shutting down & they can't figure out why. He can't visit her & has a pregnant girlfriend at home going to give birth in the next few weeks. This man worked two jobs & went to highschool to save money to sponsor getting his mother & brother here from Kenya. To say he cares about his family is an understatement, he recently bought a house big enough so his mom could live with him & his mom is the sweetest lady they are all wonderful people well except the girlfriend she's kinda bitchy :)

 They started a company wide blog at work & I have decided I will post to it but only positive things.

In all of this, like my husbands 4am seizure today & the rejection of my unemployment. I am thankful for my house full of food & that my friends & family are healthy. I pray for the people out there working dealing with the public, in hospitals, grocery stores, servicing peoples appliances.

 In all of this craziness the birds are still chirping & the squirrels are still digging up my yard, the sunflowers I planted are standing up tall reaching for the sun & reminding me that life will go on, maybe differently but it goes on.