It's been a rough week, I woke up at 12:44 the other morning to Lou having a seizure in his sleep. It only lasted about 30 seconds & he woke up out of it, then went back to bed.
Yesterday I found him slumped over on the couch in the AM, then in the afternoon he was completely just staring off unable to respond but his eyes would follow me.
He was off schedule with his medical MJ this week, just forgetting when it was time to smoke & it throws him off.
I have tried to talk to my son about the fact that we are going to cancel going on vacation but he keeps delaying the conversation. I need to cancel because I need the money for other things & my husband can't take his MJ with us because it's illegal even for medical purposes where we are going. My son doesn't see it everyday, the issues, the anger, the forgetfulness. I think me canceling vacation puts everything in a bright light for him. I don't care about canceling the vacation, I really don't but he keeps saying you need a vacation. He can go without me but he won't.
I wish I had the trick to fix my husband & my son. Make my husband healthy again & my son to see the light about what is going on in his life. But I don't, so I fight back the anxiety attacks & try to keep myself healthy so I can take care of them.
Coldplay: Fix you
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
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