Where to begin..

I spend a lot of time in my own head. Working out problems, having fictional arguments with my mother, telling off my mother in law, just solving the worlds issues if only I had the time.

I decided I needed to write it all down, some of it may be funny , some of it may be sad, but if you are reading this I hope it helps you to know you are not the only crazy one out in the universe.

" Some days are Diamonds some days are rocks" is the opening line to a song called "Walls" by Tom Petty. I have a print of that ( I really need to get a frame)  to remind me not all days are going to be perfect but just keep moving.

The things that have happened in my life do not define me as a person. They may have shaped me but I am not my problems. I'm not the teenage girl who would get beat up by her boyfriend. I'm not the teenage mom that was shut out by the other mom's at school for being so young. I'm not the girl that never felt like they fit in. I'm not the grown woman with a disabled husband .

I'm the almost 50 year old woman , that has raised a son who earned two college degrees. I'm a wife, a mother & a pretty bad ass person. I'm the girl you call when you want to cry yourself to sleep, to assure you it's all going to be alright. I'm also that girl you call when someone breaks your heart to tell you they were an asshole anyway & you are better off without them . I'm the person that will tell you to knock it off when you are sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. I'm also that person that is loyal & honest & tries to see the good in even a bad situation.

I will hold a grudge even though I know I shouldn't. I will fake a smile rather than say what I want ( because I'm an adult & that is why we are allowed to by alcohol). I observe a lot & just take it all in.

If I love you ,like really love you. I will love you forever & do anything for you.

I have a hilarious dog, well actually he is my husbands service dog. We play games like scooby doo where we chase each other around the furniture. He's a giant yellow , shedding machine that tries to sit on your lap & sometimes just comes over to give you a kiss.

I have an awesome cat, he is bad ass, he takes no shit from anyone. He's  all attitude in this fluffy little body. The dog is terrified of him, but he will curl up in my arms at night & purr until he falls asleep. I met him at an adoption event, he was sitting on top of the guys head just sitting there perfectly balanced. I saw him & said he's for me. The lady thought I was crazy but glad to find him a home. That was 7 years ago & I would still adopt him today.

I have a giant cat he's a 30 lb house panther but nervous & shy as anything. Thank goodness he doesn't realize how powerful he is or we would all be in trouble he'd be taking our dinner from the table :)

I have a boring job that pays the bills & a giant whale of a mini van to cart the dog around in.

So that's who I am.